What to do when you're in a rut

We all get this way. Well at least I know all we ARTISTIC people. I'm sure most everyone else does too.

I strongly believe that if you are passionate about something, it will get you down sometimes. It's obvious in all the movies... the girl is passionate about the boy and he makes her sad... yada yada yada.

Well I'm passionate about lots of things, which I think is the reason I am down a lot of the time. especially recently.

Here are some things I am passionate about:

The Lord

Music

People

Family


I have such a passionate love for our Lord and I could not make it through the day without him, but I also worry about disappointing him. I want more and more of his love and I want to do his will for me and I am so passionate about that, that I am afraid sometimes that I am just failing. It gets me down but then I realize that he KNOWS my heart better than anyone or anything ever will. He knows my deepest hopes and dreams and he is waiting for me to come back into his arms and ask for help.

Music. If you know me AT ALL you know that music and I go hand in hand. I am so passionate about this that I want to do it all and be super successful at all of it. I am majoring in vocal music education, but if I had it my way I would be majoring in vocal and instrumental music ed and also performance and also would get a major in saving the planet. I want to do it all and it brings me down when I realize that I can't do it all.

I am passionate about people. I would spend all my money on my friends if I got the opportunity. I just really love all the people I really love and sometimes I try to express this love too much and it puts me in a situation of thinking that these people can't possibly love me as much as I love them. Talk about discouraging. When in reality, 9 times out of 10 the people I put my time and love into will love me back.

Family. I am so passionate and grateful for the great family that God has blessed me with. I have been blessed with people who completely support my goals and dreams and aspirations to save the world and be a musician. I love them so much and I am so lucky that sometimes it turns into fear that I am disappointing them or that they might leave!

So all of these things are things that I absolutely love more than anything (except the other things..) and these are also the causes of 90% of my frustrations. I get frustrated and upset over things that I want to do well in and can't. The fact of the matter is that God has put these wonderful things in my life (family, friends, music and him) not so that I can spend hours upon hours feeling guilty for not treating each thing perfectly but so that I can feel NOURISHED and ENRICHED by their very presence.

So I challenge all of you to find the things God has place especially in your life to enrich you, whether that be a talent, a person or a hobby and let it bring you peace amongst all the other craziness of your life. Let your gifts be just that. GIFTS!

Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.